Written in 2018 - Walls

Walls

every handful of days
something switches
no longer satisfied
with the world i built

all around me
what i see
is not
it is not
it is not what i want

to tear the walls down
make them blank
to look at the destruction
it’s so clean

i don’t want that anymore
but maybe i will tomorrow

another day

of my mind
tearing and rebuilding
rebuilding and tearing

maybe i’ll  look at the world with my eyes first.
maybe that will let the warmth come and stay.
maybe i’ll look at the world with just my eyes today.